Waiting for everything

Today is one of those days when I can’t really concentrate on anything. I hate when I get this way, I know that I can get things done well and fast but today is not one of those days. I think that it has to do with waiting. I know that someone close to me is waiting for something awful to happened. I can’t get a hold of him so I hope that he’ll read this soon and know that I’m thinking of him. Ring mig när du kan, jag väntar…
I have talked to two of my best friends at home and it made me happy, I hadn’t realized how much I miss them. Sometimes I feel as if I’m living in a dream. Not reality. And I’ve been gone only a few weeks. If you take the plane at Narita airport and fly for about 11 hours you’re in Sweden. I had kind of forgotten that. I forget things easily, how things were in Uppsala and peoples faces. Strange isn’t it. Lennart and my family are now voices on the phone, it feels so strange at times. As you see I’m having one of those days when you analyze things…to much. I have been thinking about everything I had planned for this year and how I’m going to get those things done. I didn’t come here just for fun, I have to remember that. When I came here I was so tired of working as hard as I did back home but now I’m feeling ready to start working again. Maybe tomorrow…